Sunday, April 26, 2015

Always, With the News

Today, some good friends told us that they are expecting their first baby. It is the second friend's pregnancy we've learned of in a week. The third announcement in two weeks. I expect there will be many more in the coming months as many friends' babies who are Haven's age hit their first year. I'm not sure how many more facebook profiles and posts I can "unfollow" on facebook - I already shield myself from a lot of other people's joy.

I always feel both elated for our friends upon hearing this kind of news, yet completely distraught and empty at the same time.  Every pregnancy announcement is a little like a punch to the stomach. It's hard to not be jealous of the innocence of pregnancy that they are experiencing...which I will never take part in again. I always think (with a little bitterness, I will admit), "when will it be our turn? We've waited long enough."

I wish our friends all the happiness they deserve. I just hope it is our turn to be happy someday too.


T. Mckenzie Joseph said...

Mrs. SNOW!!!!! It's MacJo I went on the app to record my period and then my curiosity got the best of me and I has to check on my girls.... Then I noticed you had not posted in some time!!!! I was worried. I checked back for a week still nothing!!! Then I remembered your blog! I'm glad you are ok. I read all your latest posts and I totally get it! I have been going through much the same!!! I have to run out right now but I just wanted to send you a hug and tell you I was thinking about you!!!!

Brandi said...

Hugs back! So good to hear from you! :)